Thread: I'm pulling the job trigger

So some of you have been here long enough to remember me when I managed the English school, and a couple were here while I went to Training Academy, then I stopped posting for about a year, and then came back posting all day every day. So here's my deal.





I really fucking hate my job.





I did my bestest for 6 months and then I went and spoke to my NCO's - which lead to a series of uncomfortable interviews with the white shirts (officers) and landed me a temporary desk job with the Olympics. I would occasionally fill in shifts on the road on weekends or when they were short or just for the hell of it. I've loved this job and excelled at it (I took the position from a Sgt who was floundering in it), but the Paralympics are over at the end of the month and I really can't sit here and hide for the next 25 years.



So I'm resigning. After a year long application, 6 months in paramilitary hell, a year and a half of cleaning people's blood and shit out of the back seat... I'm gonna face the fact that I really just do not want to do this anymore.



I'm 90% sure my wife will stay with me, but she will probably never fully forgive me. She raised the kid alone in a foreign country for 6 months while I was off in Regina doing pushups, and I'm gonna reward her by giving up a sweet pension, full government benifits, salary twice what i had when i met her, and absolutely no idea what we're going to be doing for money next month.



I'm going to ask for a civillian position with the RCMP, and I think I've done well in this job and will be able to sweet-talk my way into one, but they've been clear that it's not a transfer. I quit, I leave, and THEN I apply, externally, for the civillian jobs. Could take months, could take years, could never happen. And all elvels of government are out of money. Worst possible timing.



I'm basically throwing away everything we sacrificed the past three years for. 3 years. We're only been married 5.





I'm not suicidal, this isn't a cry for help. I'm not asking for paypal donations quite yet. I'm just kind of venting and purging this shit cause to be honest I'm really scared. I think anybody who's read more than 3 of my posts will probably say to themselves "well yeah, the guy doens't sound the least thing like a cop".





They were really, really cool boots though. It'll phsysically hurt to hand those in. The badge and gun i can't get rid of fast enough.. but those boots. I have blood, sweat and tears - literally all three - in those boots.

If it makes you feel any better I asked to be laid off with a reference on Monday from my job because the thought of doing it one more day was giving me violent thoughts towards the people I was working with (as in I wanted to beat the shit out of every person that spoke to me because of pure disdain towards my job) and I have been trying to get a transfer to a different state and they wouldn't give me it and I can't get interviews without living in the state that I want to transfer to. I haven't found out if they accepted it yet.

I can only imagine how quickly police work wear on ones psyche. No way I'm doing that. What do you really enjoy doing?...porn aside, is there a way to incorporate that passion into making a buck? I've been there, and done what you're going through more times than I can count...Construction in a family business, hated working for dad. Ran away to the Navy for almost 9 years, burned out on that. Drove semi trucks, hated it. In the end, I returned to construction as my own man....roots were too deep, and I always loved solving problems, butchering wood, and creating something unique and lasting.



Good luck.

Hey Knuckles baby, have you considered whoring your ass out ? You know, prostitution ? Your kind a hot in 80's breakfast club kinda way.

I spend most of my time taking care of my mentally and physically disabled wife, and I probably

will be for the rest of her life. I wish I could just quit because it was a bummer.



Before this I spent fifteen years driving trucks hauling hazardous materials, in the last few years

I would get my paperwork and get as far as the truck, but I would often just sort of hang on the door

handle for a while and tell myself to get in.

[quote name='Dr.Knuckles' date='09 March 2010 - 07:06 PM' timestamp='1268179618' post='127232']

So some of you have been here long enough to remember me when I managed the English school, and a couple were here while I went to Training Academy, then I stopped posting for about a year, and then came back posting all day every day. So here's my deal.





I really fucking hate my job.





I did my bestest for 6 months and then I went and spoke to my NCO's - which lead to a series of uncomfortable interviews with the white shirts (officers) and landed me a temporary desk job with the Olympics. I would occasionally fill in shifts on the road on weekends or when they were short or just for the hell of it. I've loved this job and excelled at it (I took the position from a Sgt who was floundering in it), but the Paralympics are over at the end of the month and I really can't sit here and hide for the next 25 years.



So I'm resigning. After a year long application, 6 months in paramilitary hell, a year and a half of cleaning people's blood and shit out of the back seat... I'm gonna face the fact that I really just do not want to do this anymore.



I'm 90% sure my wife will stay with me, but she will probably never fully forgive me. She raised the kid alone in a foreign country for 6 months while I was off in Regina doing pushups, and I'm gonna reward her by giving up a sweet pension, full government benifits, salary twice what i had when i met her, and absolutely no idea what we're going to be doing for money next month.



I'm going to ask for a civillian position with the RCMP, and I think I've done well in this job and will be able to sweet-talk my way into one, but they've been clear that it's not a transfer. I quit, I leave, and THEN I apply, externally, for the civillian jobs. Could take months, could take years, could never happen. And all elvels of government are out of money. Worst possible timing.



I'm basically throwing away everything we sacrificed the past three years for. 3 years. We're only been married 5.





I'm not suicidal, this isn't a cry for help. I'm not asking for paypal donations quite yet. I'm just kind of venting and purging this shit cause to be honest I'm really scared. I think anybody who's read more than 3 of my posts will probably say to themselves "well yeah, the guy doens't sound the least thing like a cop".





They were really, really cool boots though. It'll phsysically hurt to hand those in. The badge and gun i can't get rid of fast enough.. but those boots. I have blood, sweat and tears - literally all three - in those boots.

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Have you spoke to your wife about this?

Besides playing with us all day, what do you like to do?

You were a teacher, have you thought about going back into that?

What about teaching at the academy (or the RCMP equivalent)?

What would make you happy and support the family?

[quote name='bla bla' date='09 March 2010 - 07:29 PM' timestamp='1268180968' post='127244']

I spend most of my time taking care of my mentally and physically disabled wife, and I probably

will be for the rest of her life. I wish I could just quit because it was a bummer.



Before this I spent fifteen years driving trucks hauling hazardous materials, in the last few years

I would get my paperwork and get as far as the truck, but I would often just sort of hang on the door

handle for a while and tell myself to get in.

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My best friend has cared for his wife since they were involved in a horrible traffic accident 25 years ago...it's quite a cross to bear for both of them, but they manage...I don't know if I would have the strength.



I can relate to the truck driving....I always felt I was in a prison cell with a steering wheel attached to it that could kill me, or someone else at any second.... 5 years of doing it, I think I slept for about 4 hours.