Thread: Look into the mind of the Colorado shooter....

nghtmrchld26

exPc Fan
Posts: 119
(12/9/07 10:55 am)


No more abuse to me, Christian or otherwise All this bullshit about morals and standards and everyone trying so hard to get into heaven and �be good.� All these f***tards saying �oh, just stop being different, you can�t be this way� �just stop feeling this way� �you need to repent(to whichever god or religious system they believe in� �you don�t have it so bad� �you�re just spoiled� �don�t do drugs, don�t have sex, you�re going to hell�you�re a bad person�you�re mentally ill�no one likes you� blah blah blah

I say, @#%$ you!�..shut up and DIE
I really don�t give a good god @#%$ about what you think is �right� and what is �wrong� and what is acceptable and what isn�t nice, I just don�t @#%$ CARE!
SHUTUP AND DIE!!!!

I�m full of hate and I love it! I hate people and they better @#%$ fear me if they know what�s good for them. Yes I hate, I�m headed to Hell and I guess I want others to know it. �Moral Values� people like Christians bring it on themselves�.preaching all their bullshit and trying to take over the world with their Nightmare religion�� �what would Jesus do� and all their ten commandments bullshit�me�..I will do MY Will and I will kill those who try to thwart my will�Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law�.


I hate you people for leaving me out of so many fun things. And no don't @#%$ say, "well thats your fault" because it isnt, you people had my phone #, and I asked and all, but no. no no no dont let the weird looking KID come along, ohh @#%$ nooo.

HA HA HA HA HA HA I�m coming for EVERYONE soon and I WILL be armed to the @#%$ teeth and I WILL shoot to kill. �.God, I can�t wait till I can kill you people. Feel no remorse, no sense of shame, I don�t care if I live or die in the shoot-out. All I want to do is kill and injure as many of you � as I can especially Christians who are to blame for most of the problems in the world.

Well all you people out there can just kiss my ass and die. From now on I don't give a @#%$ about what all you mutha fuckers have to say, unless I respect you which is highly unlikely, but for those of you who do happen to know me and know that I respect you, may peace be with you and don't be in my line of fire, for the rest of you, you all better @#%$ hide in your houses because I'm coming for EVERYONE soon, and I WILL be armed to the @#%$ teeth, and I WILL shoot to kill and I WILL @#%$ KILL EVERYTHING! No I am not crazy, crazy is just a word, to me it has no meaning, everyone is different, but most of you @#%$ heads out there in society, going to your everyday @#%$ jobs and doing your everyday routine shitty things, I say @#%$ you and die, if you got a problem with my thoughts, come to me and I'll kill you, because........God damnit, DEAD PEOPLE DON'T ARGUE! My belief is that if I say something, it goes. I am the law. If you don't like it, you die. If I don't like you or I don't like what you want me to do, then you die. If I do something incorrect, oh @#%$ well, you die. Dead people can't do many things, like argue, whine, @#%$, complain, name, rat out, criticize, or even @#%$ talk. So that�s the only way to solve arguments with all you fuckheads out there, I just kill. God I can't wait till I can kill you people, I'll just go to some downtown area in some big city and blow up and shoot everything I can.

You break my back but you won�t break me�..all is black but I still see�shut me down, knock me to the floor�..shoot me up, @#%$ me like a whore�.trapped under ice, comfortably cold, I�ve gone as low as you can go�.. feel no remorse, no sorrow or shame��time�s gonna wash away all pain
I made a God out of blood not superiority
I killed the king of deceit and now I sleep in anarchy


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nghtmrchld26

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Posts: 116
(12/9/07 4:07 am)


Never said I wanted to be god's disciple..... thank you to all you christians who've made me this way....you've added to the rage........I'm just so full of hate now and I love it............forcing all your religious bullshit down my throat all these fuckin years with your dominionist christian agenda....like in Jesus Camp.....well...the abuse ends NOW.........give me one good reason why I should show ANY mercy and compassion for ANY of you idiots........you christians never showed me any mercy nor compassion.........
me, I still believe in a loving God....but not the christian god who is full of hate....and never did anything at all all these years while I've cried out for answers for spiritual truth.......your christian God never did one thing about any of the abuse me and my christian friends went through..........why the f*** should I care about any morals?


Mankind in his insatiable search for divine
Knowledge has discarded all biblical teachings
Realizing that the strength of religion is the repression of
knowledge
All structures of religion have collapsed
Life prays for death
in the wake of the horror of these revelations
It was never imagined how graphic the reality that would
be known as the end of creation would manifest itself
We believe all this chaos and atrocity can be traced
Back to one single event.....

We hold these truths to be painfully self-evident
All men are not created equal
Only the strong will prosper
Only the strong will conquer
Only in the darkness of Christ have I realized
God Hates Us All!!!!!!

Drones since the dawn of time
Compelled to live your christian sheltered lives
Not once has anyone ever seen
Such a rise of pure hypocracy
I'll instigate I'll free your mind
I'll show you what I've known all this time

God Hates Us All!!!!! God Hates Us All!!!!
You know it's true God hates this place
You know it's true he hates this race

Homicide.......Suicide
Hate heals, you should try it sometime
Strive for Peace with acts of war
The beauty of death we all adore
I have no faith distracting me
I know why your prayers will never be answered

God Hates Us All; God Hates Us All
He Fuckin' hates me
Pessimist, Terrorist targeting the next mark
Global chaos feeding on hysteria
Cut throat, slit your wrist, shoot you in the back fair game
Drug abuse, self abuse searching for the next high
Sounds a lot like hell is spreading all the time
I'm waiting for the day the whole world @#%$ dies

I never said I wanted to be God's disciple
I'll never be the one to blindly follow!!!!!1

Man made virus infecting the world....
Self-destruct human time bomb
What if there is no God would you think the fuckin' same
Wasting your life in a leap of blind faith
Wake the @#%$ up can't ignore what I say
I got my own philosophy
I hate everyone equally
You can't tear that out of me
No segregation -separation
Just me in my world of enemies
I never said I wanted to be God's disciple
I'll never be the one to blindly follow
I'll never be the one to bear the cross-disciple

I reject this f***in' race!!!!!
I despise this f***in' place!!!!!!

That's some scary shit.

That shares many similarities with the letters from the Jokela killer in Finland. Where did it say that this nightmarechild was the dude behind the shootings? I am sorry, I haven't followed it that closely.

When I read that stuff, I wonder if some events triggered a serious breakdown of self-confidence that he didn't recover from. Picture something occuring that would be very humiliating, something happening that you would not want to be confronted with or brought up again, something traumatic that you wouldn't know how to deal with.

Imagine for some reason that you caught your wife banging another man, and that it was someone working in the same firm. Instead of you throwing this man out, he punches you in the face.

Your wife tells you that you are not a man, and that she would never have slept with him if you weren't such a loser. Now you feel guilty for being a loser, and you feel ashamed for not having stepped up for yourself. This occupies your mind to the extent that you let it influence your work in a detrimental way.

You fail to meet the expectations of your clients. You used to be a slightly narsissistic person, hard working, over-achieving, but all of a sudden you fail. You fail hard. Although you would have needed understanding and support, you don't get that. Instead, a former friend of yours sees the opportunity to go behind your back and take all the credit for something you worked on together.

When you confront him with that on the morning meeting, he makes a personal comment on your love life, as an insert sentence, and you have no quick reply. You cry. You let the other guys at work see you cry. The women on your workplace no longer look you in the eye, or they look at you in a condescending fashion. At least you interpret it to be condescending.

You no longer see yourself as a great guy. You try to tell yourself that you are a good guy, but at the same time, you know that your self-assessment is not an objective measure. Perhaps the others who give you negative feedback are right? Perhaps you are a failure?

And thus; enter the circulous viciousus, depression causes underachievment, causing more depression, and so on. You will adopt the attitude "I am not OK", instead of the normal, healthy perception "I am OK." And you will work hard to make other people like you again. In fact, you get so obsessed with having people like you, you play games to have people tell you that you are OK, so you are afraid to pursue your own interests. You don't have a backbone. The result is that people don't tell you that you are OK. Some will just take plain advantage of you, others will ignore you, and some women will look at you in contempt. At one point it is enough. Up until now, you thought, I am not OK, but everybody else are OK.

Now it changes. Now you think, I am not OK, but all you others are assholes as well. And after a phase of adjustment, we reach the point where hate is so strong, it consumes you. It consumes you till the point that you want to take out your Uzi and kill every fucking being on the planet. Partly perhaps because you play the game where you want them to feel sorry for you. And partly because you want to let out your hatred.

OK, that might not be the correct theory of what made our killer here. It is just speculation. But if we could have asked closer, I would have put money on that he didn't choose to address what the real reason triggering this incident was, because it was too shameful or painful.

Originally Posted by chu chu rocket

That shares many similarities with the letters from the Jokela killer in Finland. Where did it say that this nightmarechild was the dude behind the shootings? I am sorry, I haven't followed it that closely.

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Wow, the rantings of a crybaby. If your going to off yourself, just do it and spare people who have no clue about your trip on the whaaaaaambulance.

The guy was just plain evil.

What is plain evil, really? Do you mean he was born with traits that had to lead to this? Was he more vulnerable than others? Was he more vengeful? Did life experiences have anything to do with it, or is it bullshit? Do you have a take on that, beyond the "plain evil" thing? (That this is plain evil is pretty plain to see, I mean. What's beyond is interesting)

Originally Posted by johnflesh

Wow, the rantings of a crybaby. If your going to off yourself, just do it and spare people who have no clue about your trip on the whaaaaaambulance.

Hahahaha Nice. I like your interpretation. I should correct out the story and find a role for you.

Originally Posted by chu chu rocket

What is plain evil, really? Do you mean he was born with traits that had to lead to this? Was he more vulnerable than others? Was he more vengeful? Did life experiences have anything to do with it, or is it bullshit? Do you have a take on that, beyond the "plain evil" thing? (That this is plain evil is pretty plain to see, I mean. What's beyond is interesting)

What more is needed? "Plain evil" pretty much says it all. I have no idea what his circumstances were.